I’m just in the crappiest of moods right now. The weather here is really, really getting to me. Would it be so bad to get some sunshine here? Yesterday on my run, I get to the half way mark and just like clockwork it starts raining. Well that’s somewhat of an understatement. Really, it felt like I was standing under my shower head in the tub at home. I got soaked all the way through. My shoes were like sponges. I was freezing cold and ended up running pretty hard just to stay warm and keep my hands from going completely numb. It doesn’t look like we’re going to get much relief from the weather here any time soon.

I’m supposed to do a long ride this weekend. Looks like that might have to be on the trainer. Four hours of spinning on the trainer isn’t my idea of fun.

I haven’t seen the numbers on the scale budge all week. I’ve had a very good week of eating this week - no huge, bad meals, always maintaining a good 1,000 calorie deficit for the day. It’s kind of disheartening not to see the scale reflect my efforts for the week. I know it’s pointless to watch daily and that it’s longer term trends that I’m graphing here. But still… it’d be nice if it could throw me a bone.

So that’s about it. I’m just in a very blah mood right now. Dieting sucks. Training is going well, although I wish I could do more of it outside. I really want to move, but am worried about everything that goes with it. My friends are here, I own a home, my fiance has a good job that she likes here… I wish I could like it here. I just don’t.